broken and depressed

everything in me is broken now...
it was so traumatising ystd...
so vulnerable
so naked...

its like going to the war without weapons...
no canon no soldiers... nothing...
standing in the battlefield empty handed... starring at your enemies
praying that your enemies would just retreat off.

its just so scary.
when you are emotionally weak, physically weak and mentally weak,
and you realise the whole world turn their bac against you

its a feeling i cannot describe and never experience.
it felt so degrading...

ps: when all your hardwork is being said as a mockery... how would you feel...
i swear at that point of time, i wanted to kill her... my legs went weak and vision turned blurred... it was just so degrading. its like someone is inside digging your confidence and pride out.