mixed up

i am happy to announce that i have officially graduated from TP!
but...
somehow its hard to describe how i feel
to put it in simplier form
its a mixture of happiness, saddness, nervousness, worried and regrets

happy because i have grad.
saddness because its not the results i want. i think i can do better
nervous because i am not sure what to expect from now on
worried because i am afraid i cannot get into uni and if i cannot *choy* what are my plans?
regret because i think if i had work harder from the beginning all these worries may not exists.

coming to that "IF"
life is full of IFs.
even life itself has IF in the middle: lIFe
throughout our life
it has always been IF i had done this
If i had not done this
IF this this this
IF that that that
some how people will always regret on things when they look back
and for me,
it always happens
so i think i need to add in a new resolution for this year
and it shall be,
when i look back on 2007 the next year, there will be no regrets and no "if i had /had not done this"

work hard towards it. hope i will grow up from this experience and i think i have learn a lesson the painful way, so should i be given a chance to get into NUS the uni of my choice, i will work hard and make sure there are no more regrets.

ps: its a new phase. but life will still be the same. and i am going shopping at vivo tommorrow. its still the same. only the mood isn't. this time, shopping will be more relax and worry-less.