forgive, forget, accept - 21st aug

for the past few days, i was in a foul mood.
things at home are slightly better.
we have started talking, but things aren't rosy yet.
its easy for me to forgive what you have said and pretend nothing has happen
but forgetting would be tough.
your words are echo-ing in my head now and then
and its really very hurtful.

other then things at home that is causing that foul mood of mine,
there are problems...
that damn ER essay is gonna drive me bonkers.
writing is easy (just dump the facts) but linking them up and having that 'flow' is so difficult.
argh!

i've accept the fact that probably we will never be together.
that's why i've given up
but to accept the fact that
one day someone will be beside you,
sitting on that front seat of your car,
holding your hands,
and that person isn't me
makes my heart sink.
i've still got a long way to go.
healing is difficult. accepting everything is hard.
sometimes i wonder, can time really heal all wounds?

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

only time will tell if it really can heal all wounds.
i guess accepting is the most difficult part in the healing process.
you've got to accept everything.
only then you will start healing.
(sometimes i wish he could just go and be a priest. haha. i think it would be easier for me to accept it)

ps: an untold secret, a hidden truth.