this is bad - 10th oct

i don't know how to start.
things aren't right to begin with
my grandma has blood disorder, the doctor's primary diagnosis.
have to wait for further test to confirm the illness
this sounds bad, leukemia is probably in the cards.
hais.
hope things can brighten up.

i've got my own issues too.
but i think i am coping fine
as compared, i think my problems are really minor. haha...
the usually whinning of how much i am thinking about him,
what is he thinking up there and stupid stuff
that i think May have heard a zillion times of.
SORRY. (apologetic)
but i cannot help it...
next time you will understand,
probably that Sh--- guy.
MUHAHAHAA!!!

mugging mugging mugging.
hardwork is needed to be able to taste the sweetness of your labour!
no pain no gain.
WAY TO GO!!!

lastly...
still thinking about this saturday,
should i go out or not?
if i want, i must remember to sms him soon (tmr),
he is always very "w-o-l-s"
and...
photos will be up pretty soon i guess...
if i have the time.

this post is suppose to be depressing, i am breaking a bad news. but it ended a little cheery and perky. hmm... gonna go and cry a river.

seriously, i hope things are not as bad as i think it would be.

ps: daydreaming about possibilities, but it shall never happen in real life.
there's a difference between "reel" and "real" life.