mugging!

exams tomolo and i just started mugging

hai.
it always procrastination (spelling correct?) and last minute crash study.

stressed out and tired

别说对不起

别说对不起别让我灰了心
才说不是故意我却无法怪你
别说对不起别让我的爱情变的小心翼翼
我却只能爱你
用行动来证明
你的决心
不要说说而已
我想要的不只是 sorry

horoscopes

Aries - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're quite the charmer. You've got the wit and attitude to attract almost anyone you meet. Out spoken and honest, any date knows how they stand with you. Fearless, independent, and willing to try anything twice - your dates should expect the unexpected. Your negative traits: You tend to be vain, and you expect your partner to feed that vanity often with complements. Hot tempered and impulsive, you've occasionally ended things ... only to regret it later. You're obsessed with being the best, most loved girlfriend or boyfriend your sweetie's ever had. Your ideal partner: A risk taking, free spirit like yourself - who can keep up with your latest wild child antics. Someone stylish, attractive, and fit... who can keep you attracted for months. Is hard to get - and lets you pursue things. You prefer to be the chaser, not the one being chased. [yes! stylish, attractive and fit!] Your dating style: Wild, unpredictable, fun, and daring. Your ideal date may involve a couple motorcycles or naked skydiving. [not naked skydiving for sure.] Your seduction style: Honest and direct - you have no need for romance or much foreplay. Show off. You like to show your lover how you're the best ever. Ambitious. You often like to go all night - or aim for multiple orgasms. [muhaha] Tips for the future: Start to believe in second and third chances. You don't have to dump them so fast. Savor the process. Sometimes the best part of falling in love is taking things in slow motion. Let go of comparisons. If someone's with you, then you've already one. Stop worrying about exes. Best color to attract mate: Red Best day for a date: Tuesday

reflect...

poly life is ending soon...
after the my paper on thursday
a presentation on the 6 of march
and...
provided i pass all my modules this semester (which i hope i will)

after that its time for the real world.
i am not sure what i should do
and what i want to do.

should i pursue higher education
or get a job
but i know i am not ready for the working world.
and if i am to study
will i be offered a place.?
if not, then what.?

ps: for the time being, till i have decided what i want, i need to get a part time job. if anyone got "lobang" please tell me. whatever job will be fine, just no office/desk job.

excited!

OH MY GOD!

i cannot wait till next week...
i cannot wait!

the final episode of Hana Kimi will be out next week...
wohoo!

is it really like this?

the thinner i get, the happier i become, the more confidence i have?

apparently, this is so.

but, is it really the case?

nice bus...

went to town ystd.
since i am still early to meet eunice and the rest
i decided to take a bus there

and guess what
i have board the coolest bus ever.









apparently , this bus is to promote the Nokia Music Phone (i don't know what model) and the bus is designed in lounge kind of feel.

its so damn cool

er... this is my first time la...
call me "sua Ku" also can
but i was really very excited!


muhaha.. like a small kid like that.

another thing.
i've been tubing (watching you tube) for the whole week
watching the hana kimi
and i love that show absolutely

its really cute!



i love the whole cast and also that cute dog "yu ci lang"
if you all haven watch it catch it on youtube or channel
its a show not to be missed or you will regret it
definitely!

ps:
请在我后悔之前离开我
在我还没有崩溃的时候
不愿意再用深情
勒索你的温柔
会有多难过明天再说
请在我后悔之前离开我
去某个幸福快乐的星球
不确定我的笑容
还能够撑多久
如果你慈悲
千万别回头

very fun

had a ultra fun new year
gathering with long time no see relatives and
playing "dai di"
and i won $38...
it was great when all the bets you made was only i mere $2
i think i will be rather lucky this year...
*cross finger and pray hard*
but however there are things where "pure luck" cannot help you
you need to work hard towards them

over the new year
went to relatives house to "pai nian"
and i became the "icon" over the new year
because of my successful weight loss (which i think i still a distance away from my ideal weight of 48kg)

my "da yi zhang" could not recognise me
muahahaa...
did i really change so much?
how come i did not realise it?

also, the relatives at my dad side was really impress with my weight loss
haha... my "gu po" also could not recognise me

WHAT'S THE PROB?
am i really beyond recognition?

hahhaa.. my mum's collegue was also gwaking over it

i felt happy over it but at the same time really embarrass about it
as i seldom become the center of attention.
i am not by nature a attention seeker
so that make me felt really uncomfortable.

but i still think there is still more room for improvement ...
i still can loose more weight and will do so.
my ideal weight...
here i come!!

also, over the new year
i manage to catch hanakimi (花样少年少女) on you tube
and i am left with last two episode which are still yet to be aired in taiwan.
it is really nice...
and i am really in love with wu zhun and jiro
hahaha...
wu zhun is such a hunk. jiro really cute and comical.
haha...

who can resist hunks, right?

its a sweet show...
will they be together in the end?
how will the ending be like?
the OST for the show sang by Tank is really nice...
AH!
hahaha.

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤

小小的手掌
厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想
透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

小小的手掌
大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔

你想去的地方
就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我
心上拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生
命只有黑夜

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

estatic...

i am happy
cos chinese new year is jsut hours away.

going for reunion dinner later
having a headache
cos i've been thinking too much
thinking how to refuse food from relatives this new year
and eat without getting FAT!

haha

anyway, spent the whole morning watching tv and youtube
found some very nice mvs

罗志祥 - 精舞门


Tank - 专属天使


Justin Timberlake - Sexy Back

this song also sang by him during the victoria's secret fashion show 2006. he is hot!

五月天 - 为爱而生

twister

had a hair cut at twister just now.
and i love it!

its worth my 25 bucks.







i think i will get my hair cut at twister from now on.

happy valentine's day.

hey peeps,
happy valentine's day.

campaign for real beauty

seen the dove advertisement.
i think its really great.
very inspiring and it makes you feel good about urself.

temporary.

i said temporary because i don't feel good about myself anymore.
i was taking to eunice ystd about esteem issues.
an i told her,
"i don't like people looking at me, because, i think they think that i am fat and ugly."
i don't know why.
people have said that i look prettier and slimmer
but i think its all false and lies
because when i see the mirror,
i see the ugly, fat and dumpy me.

I FEEL FAT AND UGLY.

i don't like what i see in the mirror.

sometimes when i tell my friends
i am a big beauty
but inside its like
"yeah right, wake up. you can never look like that!"

I FEEL FAT
I FEEL UGLY
I FEEL DUMPY
I FEEL GROSS

wedding

part one of the photos.


me and aili at eunice house - face cramp liao


aili and eunice


me and eunice


the bride


group photo - why my face lidat






aili with the bride - veron


fang and veron


eunice and veron


me!


her mama...


her mum and dog


veron's cousin wif eunice


raymond - eunice's bf


the end of part one... TATA

yesterday...

some pictures from yesterday's wedding.
will post more when aili and veron send me the rest.


the bride


fang and bride - present from us

married

back from the wedding ceremony
very tired...
very funny experience lehs...

blogger is finally ok.

stressed up

the stupid BI critique is making me really stress now.
its damn freaking difficult.
got no idea whats happening.

i need a nap.

Okay.

the telephone in my house has been spoilt these few days.
the telecom man came and its okie!

the wire outside my house has loosen
therefore the phone could not work.


mission accomplished!

elton... i "love" you

yeah rite.
if i love him,
pigs can fly.

stupid elton cheong
why put deadlines early in the morning...
i have to go to school so like 9am
which means i have to wake up at 645am
den be out by 730am
reach school by 830am to bind the report and submit in...

den i have to slack till 11am for lab lessons.
thats not the end...
why make lecture compulsory tomolo...
got another 2 hrs to slack until 3pm
then only can i meet eunice at 5pm

all thanks to him...
igonna suffer tomolo
not enough sleep and being bored to death.

SHIT HIM!

hope the guest lecturer falls sick...

ps: blisters...

signs to show that lunar new year is around the corner

1. bugis is usually packed

2. everywhere is selling the same chinese new year decorations


3. bak kua store in chinatown has long queues


4. chinatown is painted red with all the decorations


5. pasar malam in chinatown selling the same stuff


6. shopping centres are jam packed during wekends


7. your neighbourhood NTUC is flooded with new year cookies and baranag barang


8. you see avertisement for reunions dinner everywhere


9. you see advertisement selling yu shang everywhere claiming their's the best


10. CHINESE NEW YEAR SONGS EVERYWHERE...

AND ITS REALLY IRRTATING!

Finally... ITS OVER!

major project presentation is over!!
and i think we did pretty ok.
there were no much question asked.. only 2 small ones...
is it a good sign or bad?
i hope its good.

at least now i have one more report to do.
OH! and still got all the funny survey and self reflection journal
and also BI critique thingy...
sian...

nothing much...
pictures for now


my school...


strip tease







cam whore..
haha...

btw...
i haf applied for NUS and NTU...
for NUS,
i applied for nursing degree and business course

for NTU
its economics, psyco and i cannot remember... but i think its also business course

now left submitting results
for poly and O level.
so better go ask nara when i can get my portfolio back.

ps: i need sleep...

hmmz

shld be doing notes now... but a bit lazy
tomolo will be a new week and i must work really hard this week...
cos there is presentation and report to do...
plus there are so many subject and project survey to complete
i cannot understad why is there a need to do so...
anyway, it would not be very accurate too because i doubt ppl will take them seriously...
just anyhow do...

anyway.. i applied for uni..
i dun think there will be an answer that i want
not pinning too much hope..
if i cannot go uni...
hmm...
we'll see then...

also, veron is getting married next sunday...
i am not really excited but rather apprehensive...
its it too early to settle down?
but if its not... so what?
they have to.
hais...
life will be so different for her after next sunday
and it feels weird

gotta fiind something to get her...

i am better... but now, i am having this very stuffy nose...
hope they can get better soon...
chinese new year is coming

and...

i just cannot shed off that 5kg... DAMN!

if i can shed more weight till new year that will be good...
but 5kg its impossible..
but 1kg is also very hard to achieve...
somehow my weight is stagnant already...

HAIZ

sick...

i am sick... again
haiz...

anyway.
here is another kopitiam prank
no subtitles
so gotta listen carefully

broken and depressed

everything in me is broken now...
it was so traumatising ystd...
so vulnerable
so naked...

its like going to the war without weapons...
no canon no soldiers... nothing...
standing in the battlefield empty handed... starring at your enemies
praying that your enemies would just retreat off.

its just so scary.
when you are emotionally weak, physically weak and mentally weak,
and you realise the whole world turn their bac against you

its a feeling i cannot describe and never experience.
it felt so degrading...

ps: when all your hardwork is being said as a mockery... how would you feel...
i swear at that point of time, i wanted to kill her... my legs went weak and vision turned blurred... it was just so degrading. its like someone is inside digging your confidence and pride out.

i feel like a sucker

today...
i felt i was born a sucker...
a real idiotic sucker.

DUMB, IGNORANT AND VERY STUPID IS WHAT I THINK I WAS LABELLED IN THEIR MINDS TODAY

ps: i don't want to be with smart arses in my entire whole life. it will make me look stupid and retarded. maybe i am just bimbotic... its the they when my confidence fell to an all time low. ITS ZERO CONFIDENCE. its emotional traumatising. i am at my breaking point.