Bye... and ... Hi

Bye 19
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HELLOooo 20!

forgetful

am i going to be one year older
and it seems like i am getting even forgetful than usual.

i am going senile.

birthday celebration

hmm... can i consider it a heart warming one.
the girls bought me a skirt. (they know i need to revamp my wardrobe)
and i love the skirt, and the pocket.

dinner was ok, but the cake is damn sinful.
i think i will faint seeing the weighing scale in the morning.
another kilo heavier.

i love the girls.

and i am having a big feast this friday night.
this week will be crazy.

ps: i think i am in a better mood. but now, i cannot decide what uni course to apply for. gosh!

mirror magic

hate?

or


love?

ps: dejected. been in bad mood since last night. not sure why but it must be something to do with uni application, money, job and not enough sleep. its ALL OF THEM! and i sense that this year's birthday wouldn't be great. I HATE LIFE NOW! everything is nt right and i feel very pissed off at everyone around me. i don't like this feeling. i hope its just the pms lurking in me.

i like it now

i think we are really better off now
then we are last time

in the past
it feels like there's a wall between us
and we are both uneasy with each other

but now
we talk more
you open up to me more
and i like it

i like it as a friend.

ps: i like the way it is now and i thank god for it.

i want that

saw this video on may's blog
and it is damn funny and innovative.
something never invented until now
i want that too...



ps: if you cannot accept it, so be it. rejection.

my birthday

i am turning 20 in ten days time.
wohoo~ but i am feeling sad cuz i feel so old.

anyway, i think this year i have come up with a plan on what to do on my birthday.

1. Gotham penthouse on ladies night to see semi-naked hunks dancing
2. Clubbing at The Clinic and Kandi Bar by Hed Kandi
3. Go tanning
4. Get a tattoo or navel ring *hope to*

are we seeing the same thing?

sometimes i wonder,
are you seeing what i am seeing in the mirror?

ps: confused. tired. bored.


my new black dress

Mv

唐禹哲's lastest Singles: <<最爱还是你>>

when life get so bored

when life get so bored
its no wonder people tend to think to much and get insecure

when life gets so bored
its expected for people to get a bit senile and unalert.

when life gets so bored
people tend to hang around doing nothing

when life gets so bored
I WILL WRITE SUCH A POSTING!

a day at vivo

when to vivo city today and bought a few clothes
and i think will buy more the following few weeks.

now i noe what it feels like to shop till you drop,
legs are breaking
back is aching

nonetheless,
PHOTOS!


M.A.C roadshow


looks like the makeup room in the studio


hungry?


want some sweet pastries?


hansel and grater






its so cute






dog buffet


me! and my new cap

mixed up

i am happy to announce that i have officially graduated from TP!
but...
somehow its hard to describe how i feel
to put it in simplier form
its a mixture of happiness, saddness, nervousness, worried and regrets

happy because i have grad.
saddness because its not the results i want. i think i can do better
nervous because i am not sure what to expect from now on
worried because i am afraid i cannot get into uni and if i cannot *choy* what are my plans?
regret because i think if i had work harder from the beginning all these worries may not exists.

coming to that "IF"
life is full of IFs.
even life itself has IF in the middle: lIFe
throughout our life
it has always been IF i had done this
If i had not done this
IF this this this
IF that that that
some how people will always regret on things when they look back
and for me,
it always happens
so i think i need to add in a new resolution for this year
and it shall be,
when i look back on 2007 the next year, there will be no regrets and no "if i had /had not done this"

work hard towards it. hope i will grow up from this experience and i think i have learn a lesson the painful way, so should i be given a chance to get into NUS the uni of my choice, i will work hard and make sure there are no more regrets.

ps: its a new phase. but life will still be the same. and i am going shopping at vivo tommorrow. its still the same. only the mood isn't. this time, shopping will be more relax and worry-less.

pictures.

as promise...
pictures for the past few weeks

Meeting Young Minds



me and An Ting


Meifong


Tini


Group photo


yeah! finally its over.

V Tea House @ Esplanade

chio!


sweet pastries


chocolate melt cake with berries


finally, a nice pose from me.


雨下在我窗前
玻璃也在流眼淚
街上的人都看起來
比我幸福一點
用寂寞來測驗
還是最想要你陪
曾一起走過的夏天
我常常會夢見

我猜不到你真正的感覺
思念寫成臉上的黑眼圈
有的時候我寧願
你對我壞一點
無法停止幻想我們的永遠

愛你是孤單的心事
不懂你微笑的意思
只能像一朵向日葵
在夜裡默默的堅持
愛你是孤單的心事多
希望你對我誠實
一直愛著你用我自己的方式

我在你的心裡
有沒有一點特別
就怕你終究沒發
現我還在你身邊

Tank - 終極一班

opening song for <<終極一班>>
the show is nice!
there is another version of the song by 東城衛.
lead singer: 汪東城
FIY its 汪東城 own band...
but i cannot seem to find the video clip.

special

nothing will be special like him.
he is special because he is the one and only person i cannot lay my hands on
and may never lay my hands on.
and because of that he is special
and i thank god for letting it happen
because, in this way
he shall forever be very special to me.

ps: as promise, pictures tonight

what now?

just finish watching <<終極一班>>
not sure which drama serial to see now.
but sure,
will be watching some more shows.

<<終極一班>> is a nice show
the ending isn't as bad as i think it would be
rather touching
waiting for <<終極一家>> to start airing.
then i can see my 汪東城 again...
haha...
for the time being better catch up on my <<娛樂百分百>>
and some shows that may recommend.
will be busy... haha

anyway been busy doing shopping...
shopped the whole afternoon today
bought a cap...
and a flesh imp top... (sometime last weekend)
planning to buy sun glasses but cannot decide on which to buy..
planning to buy that FOX tube and that Pull and Bear T-Shirt, that TopShop blouse...
damn... so many things to buy...
gonna take pocket money soon...
oh... i forgot that New Urban Male shirt too...

its that how i want to led my life, wasting myself on unconstructive activities
or should i start planning to do something productive and meaningful?

when aimlessness takes over you
it makes one really fearful and uncertain about things.

shakespeare: to be or not to be, that's a question

ps: photos soon

crossroads

in another few days
and i shall meet my fate.

been reading others blog and found out that they have found jobs
and me, still sitting around doing nothing how can on
shopping 7 days a week
how can one be such aimless?
seriously, i really do not know what to do
not sure if i can grad
not sure if i can enter into uni of my choice
or maybe even not sure what am i going to do tommorrow

some have found jobs in MNCs
as what executive "whatsoever" one
some very bombastic title which i cannot remember

they have good results, nice transcripts
and have skills that are "too good for the company"
what do i have?
nothing.
just loads of shopping skills...
which boutique is having sale storewide, where to get that bag, skirt... *and the list goes on*
but nothing that will put me in good position to get hold of any jobs at big company, MNCs and have bombastic titles

sometimes i wonder
how worthy am i?
i feel so worthless

friends around me say it makes no different if i have a job or not
i have my parents anway.
at the end of the day i still get pocket money to shop
i am still that girl my mummy and daddy will pamper no matter what.

but i don't want to be living off my parents forever.
turning 20 soon
with no job and nothing under my belt
and still living off my parents
i am not retarded or what. i don't have down syndrome or whatsoever
that i cannot contribute to my family
and still need them to provide me for meals and all
i do not want to be so useless

i just pissed off right now
this feeling of aimlesness is making me very scared and uncertain
i feel very unsecure
and all these uneasiness is making me sink into another bout of depression

ps: i have said before that no matter what i do i will not regret when i look back in life, but now when i look back at things, i am starting to regret the decisions that i have made in life. sometimes its better being retarded and not having to worry about the world around you.

終極一班

i am watching another show:
<<終極一班>>

its a nice show but don't expect much story line from it
cosi doesn't have a really good story line
but its entertaining if you have nothing to do
late in the night
and of course
if you like "wang dong cheng"

hahaha...

enjoy!

finished hana kimi ystd night!
VERY NICE!

"xiu yi" was really cute in the show
and that "magic"
damn lame but hilarious

HANA KIMI IS THE BEST SHOW EVER!

ps: although not the best ending but it was a really great show and i really like wu zun and "da dong"

shedding

deep into the night
where i found peace and tranquility
the real me
out from its hidding place
shedding of my outer skin
the one which i potray to the whole world
the confident, happy and optimistic one

out from that skin
its the real me
full of insecurities, flaws and ugliness
pestimistic and vulnerable
i face the real me

its the face i am hidding
hidding from everyone, and even myself

self doubt

wads wrong with me?
i am not so sure wads going on with me...

ps: things just doesn't seems to be right.

Toto despair

!#$%
never "tio"

no fortune luck...

its Toto night

tonight... the CNY Toto will be out
i wonder how many lucky ones are there
i hope my mummy and daddy can be one of them...
*cross finger and pray hard*

exams are over already but somehow i feel so bored and empty
there nothing i can do
no job offer so far and a bit lazy to find job
killing time but going window shopping everyday
feel so aimless
hai.
hope they call soon so i have something to do

loosing patience

i want hana kimi!
i cannot wait anymore.
its like so damn freaking long.
its like years to this weekend.

btw.
what are you guys doing now till u grad and what are you going to do when you grad?

i am lost...

over and done with

exams over lo!
ha...

went to st. james to apply for a part time job
now waiting for them to call me in two weeks time to go for 2nd interview ...
pray hard..
i am also waiting for zouk to call me...
hope i get the job.
then i will be really cool