30th sept

what a great time to fall sick!
been falling sick quite often this few months.
Hais.
woke up ystd afternoon with a slight sore throat le.
today, even worse. sore throat, headache and body ache.
better suppress them down before they get out of hand.
i cannot afford to fall sick now!
with HMT due date lurking around and the test...
darn!

i feel like screaming and brawling like a toddler.
life is so tough.
physically weak.
mentally wreck (stress from school).
somehow, someway, i will survive it.
ITS TEMPORARY! after all these exams and stuff, i will have my fun!

ps: praying for strength, love and miracle.

chuck and larry - 30th sept

CHUCK & LARRY MOVIE IS NICE!
haha... ITS JUST DARN FUNNY AND GAY-ISH.
i like that part when they got "married"
"i now pronounce you husband and husband. you may kiss the husband."
muhaha.
the show is worth seeing la. rather pro-gay though. (i still don't like the idea of guy-guy relationship, but i don't ostracise them.)

eh. the so call "date" today was so-so. but i felt like slapping myself la.
grr! when i see him there's just silence and emptiness. GRR GRR!!
after movie, when back hougang to ta bao food for my mum then met him, wk and his friend at kovan.
ehs. am i thinking too much or what, but i think wk brought his friend got hidden agenda lehs. HAHA.

he's booking in tmr. in the evening, like 6.30pm.
hais. time just fly (like 120kmph)

just take care.

random stuff - 29th sept

sometimes, you've got to accept that things change.
i don't know why its so hard for me to adapt now.
i think i am too comfortable with the old that i have missed those new opportunities.
they say that the older you get the more difficult is it to get out of your comfort zone and adapt to new changes. (i think i am old le...)
grr!.
slowly but surely, i will adapt to them and accept it.

got tonnes of things that needs to be done
- MAB tutorials
- HMT essay
- HMT test
- clean my room
- start revising for exams.
STRESS!!

i need to do mask le. VERY URGENT!
been rather 'off colour',
i need that glow.

CHUCK & LARRY MOVIE LATER!
WOOHOO!
but i am still shaking inside.
din sleep well last night.
i need to calm down.
been pacing around the house the whole morning
DUHS!
that sense of excitment and nervousness is damn hard to describe.
just feel like there are millions of butterflies in ur tummy,
the head is blank and hollow (if you scream into my ear, i an assure you that there will be echo. thats how empty my brain is now.)
DAMN!

心花怒放, 小路乱撞
HAHA.

28th sept

saw WK online just now.
tot he sabo me sia... (i told may i will chop him up if he sabo me sia)
but it turn out to be some other things la.
that buddy of his really got him into deep shit and it seems really serious.
but i think its over exaggerated lehs.
they magnify the incident too much le la. (drama mama)

anyway. TMR! OMG!
movie tmr with him.
i am rather excited but very scared that i went to the loo like alot of times today.
i tot i will pee in my pants. HAHA.
BTW, the Shilin street snack at Marina Square sucks sia
the guy taking the order is a damn blur cuckoo bird. HAHA. his face look so lost all te time. *shake head*
bought a ripcurl purse/handbag. (its shocking pink)
*shake head again*
I NEED TO SAVE!
but i want to buy heels lehs...

TMR!!!
ARGHZ!!!
i dunno why i am so nervous, scared and excited sia.
its not the first time le lehs, but everytime will be so Kan Cheong one
may say i "zhong du tai shen"
haha.
yes. i think i will nt be giving up anytime sooner. DAMN.
so fickle minded. or rather i am not ready ba. i still find it hopeful
or is it that i interpret things wrongly.
but whatever the case is, i will try my best, and in the near future i will still be working towards my goal. WISH ME LUCK!

as for tmr. GOSH! even thinking about it makes me feel so sick.
butterflies in my stomach.
the room is spinning.
and i think i am going to get a panic attack soon.

ps: i wonder if his new hairstyle suits him. *smiles*. he replied my msg this morning like 0540hrs. what is he doing so early in the morning? he already book out le ma? he is used to NS life le, must get up so early. was laughing in bed when i saw his msg. end up cannot get back to slp, drag till 6 plus close to 7 am den went back to slp. woke at 8 and was darn late for class.

its today! - 27th sept

ITS TODAY!
he maybe out now, or maybe later in the evening.
BUT ITS GONNA BE TODAY!

its raining cats and dogs.
its cold and wet.
duhz. i hate rainy days.

i am missing that smell,
that smile,
and that feeling of happiness.

ps: waiting for that reply.

24hrs left - 26th sept

It tmr!
in another 24hrs, he shld be back!!
out of that miserable island, and back to civilisation.
WooHoo!!!!!
haha...
i am sooooooooo happy.
i cannot stop smiling.
my spirits are high and in a very very good mood.
even if we cannot meet this weekend, i am still happy.

anyway, jie mei is in SISPEC now.
Pasir Laba Camp.
where the hell is that place?!
some secluded area in the west? haha.
he so wen rou (Muhaha...)
don't know can survive ma?



they say the moon is the biggest and roundest today.
well... its really big and its like hanging very low.

heard the radio on my way back
it is reported that in taiwan there is one guy who died because he choked on mooncake.
apparently, he had stroke before.
the stroke did not kill him but the mooncake did! HA.

we are under the same sky,
with the moon over our heads.
what are you thinking of?

ps: hmm... i am afraid and worried about everything.

recap - 25th sept

2 more days to 27th sept!
excited, happy, nervous...

and yes, PHOTOS!

Mind Cafe - 13th Sept 2007
met Wei Kiat and May.
Wk enjoying his block leave.
Jeremy entered NS.
duhz.


D1.




i dunno what is this game called, but its fun.


UNO STACKO!! that smirk on Wei Kiat's face!


s-u-s-p-e-n-s-e...


CRASH!




Life - Simpsons Edition


i can bite.


dizzy...


lanterns everywhere.


Mike Tyson - Singapore Version.
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this auntie was eating her roast pork rice on the bus! super inconsiderate.
the smell was so damn strong. Singaporeans!.

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Jie Mei's POP / P&M Test - 11th Sept 2007
Jie Mei had his passing out parade. (fyi, he went to SISPEC). suppose to meet Jeremy for dinner together before his enlistment but he went to fly kite. Grr! (wear until so pretty but...) in the end, met Jie Mei for dinner instead. Thai Express de Tom Yam Soup is NICE! and thanks for the dinner!


hours before P&M test. super stress out. memory work.

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Sentosa / Vivo - 21st Sept 2007
went tanning in the afternoon after E.R. lecture.
the sun was good initially but after an hour or so there was so many clouds in the sky and it blocked the sun!
someone came up to me and requested that i take a photo with him...
and i rejected him right in the face. haha.

man: hi, can i take a photo with you?
me: HUH?! NOW?
man: do you mind?
me: YES! i mind.
man: ok.


donuts from Vinco. Changed its name to Dippin' Donuts but still the same bosses, only Jenny quitted. staff have changed more or less. the ones remaining are only Andrew, Yan Xia and Eric. the Chocolate Delight is damn ugly! the ones i did are better, prettier. hais no standard le. HAHA


cotton wool clouds



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Amara Hotel - 22nd Sept 2007
attended a so-called cousin's (very complicated to explain the family tree lehs.) solemnisation ceremony at the Amara Hotel. sweet. and i've got the urge to get married.

我用一万个答案
解释我们的距离
到最后发现我全都猜错
你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛
我要相信你是爱我的
我要相信你是勇敢的
我烦时间是最残酷的
我怎么等
我要相信你是爱我的
不要当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

ps: am i thinking too much? i hope so. will you appear in my dreams tonight?

the 7th day - 20th sept

its his 7th day in tekong.
which means another week more before he book out for the first time.
YIPPEEE!
i think i am more happy and excited than him.
ONE MORE WEEK!
i don't know how i survive the past few days.
there wasn't any time of the day
when i did not wonder how he is doing
he is constantly on my mind.
but i just did not want to sms him to ask.
(probably later, i will drop him a msg)

i just hope we can meet next week.
YEAH! ONE MORE WEEK!
if we can't meet,
at least to know that he is in mainland Singapore
i am happy enough.

i am starting to imagine how he will look like botak!

quote for the day: how long a minute depends on which side of the bathroom door you are on.

advertisements - 20th sept

just some random stuff about advertisement.

the sweetest advert - Goldheart by Alan Tern and Prisceila Chan

they make a great couple. the girl is pretty and the guy is hunky. lang cai nu mao

the funniest advert - Mocca by Muscle Man

it never fails to tickle me. super funny.

the lamest advert - Heaven and Earth Green Tea

4 words: SUPER DUPER UBERLY LAME!!

the raunchest advert - Carl's Junior by Paris Hilton

HOT!

Daniel Radcliffe - 18th Sept

this post is just on him

he appeared on Ellen Degeneres Show (i love that show!)
and its funny!!

i love Daniel Radcliffe... after Jer.

Part 1


part 2

oh my god! his tongue!!! i wanna french kiss him, and i bet he is a bloody good kisser!

his new movie - December Boys

i will go watch that show if it is screening in Singapore.

mooncake no more!

wah piang. i am super pissed off now.
my walnut crust mooncake has been eaten by some guest.
wah. i didn't even got a chance to taste it, due to toothache from braces.
the worse part is there are no more stock for the flavour le!!! and i bought it from malaysia one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMN!
i am so pissed. its the only mooncake i wanna eat and now its being eaten by someone else.
and they did not even asked if the owner has eaten it already!!!
i was thinking of keeping them until i am able to eat solid food.
now i don't need to eat any already!
PISSED!
there are still other baked and bing pi one, but i don't eat those!
good now. no more mooncake for me this zhong qiu jie.
GRR!

cranky now. feel like crying. (not b'cos of mooncake)
i don't know why i am so emo now. i am not pms-ing.
hais.

absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and fans the bonfire.

Brit's Gimme More - 17th Sept

recently at the MTV Video Music Awards 2007
Britney performed her new song "Gimme More"



you'll be the judge. did she make it or break it?
personally, i think its ok. but it is obvious that she is really really nervous.
there is still room for improvement. lots of.
change that hair wig
shape up a bit and cover up more
build up a positive image.

but i think her song is nice!

ps: 10 more days to go - absence makes the heart grow fonder.

rants - 14th sept

13 more days.
but will we be meeting?
at least to know that you are here
and not stuck on some island
makes me feel a little better.
its only one day and i have been sighing non stop

me: i wonder how he is doing inside.
may: u ask me ma? how do i know.
me: i am not asking you, just asking myself aloud.

jie mei say jer is in Pegasus Company.
should be rather slack and he sms-ed jie mei early in the morning,
like 4plus am.
probably he couldn't sleep and started to think of jie mei.
MUHAHa.

awaiting - 27th sept. till then, will be praying for his safety and all.

feeling kinda left out by the people around me
i am not sure why.
its not bothering me much but its making me feel uneasy.
hais. its so hard to please everyone.
sometimes, i just wish life would go the way i want,
but it doesn't.
in my eyes, people are leading better lives than me.
but in the eyes of others, they think my life is better than theirs.
is the grass really greener on the other side?
or is it because we cannot be contented with what we have.

the art of living is tough. the art of living a happy life is even tougher.

ps: i am still not ready to let go.

the day finally arrive - 13th sept

he has gone in to tekong.
wonder how he is doing?
2 weeks away from main land singapore
13 weeks of BMT - 3 months.
hais.
hope things will be fine,
take care.
awaiting for the next meet up...

jie mei say jer got into an accident last week
lucky its the car and not him thats injured. *phew*
but either way, its still bad.

one last thing...
MAY! ITS A PITY IF YOU ARE NOT A SCRIPT WRITER.
haha... but i hope its true, at least till the last part. haha.

ps: photos up soon.

GRR! - 12th sept

FUCK OFF.
I AM REALLY DAMN PISSED OFF WITH IT.

what is fucking wrong with him?

gonna miss that last chance seeing him b4 he enters NS.
ASSHOLE!

i can bite! - 11th sept

GRR!
i am so pissed off.
DAMN!
HE FLY MY KITE!

anyway, its september 11 today.
6 years ago, those terrorists crashed into the twin towers in States,
killing many.
many lost their wives, husbands, children, parents, siblings and friends.
my deepest condolences to those who have lost their love ones,
i salute those fire rescuers who perish when the building collapsed.
they died with honour.
they are heros.

ps: which direction is your moral compass pointing at?

its over lo! - 10th sept

MAB is finally over!
i am happy.
no comments on the paper.

tomorrow... its tuesday!!
double happy.
hope that his hair is shave
and i think i will not be able to contAin my laughter.
MUHAHA...

don't expect too much.
it will never happen.

i feel relax now... can sleep in peace.

i hate the week that has just past
i hate this weekend.
bloody foul mood.
super stress.
and i loose my temper over very minor stuff.
i am snapping like a twig.
fussing over things which are so minor
complaining about everything and anything.

i am under tremendous stress now.
nervous breakdown.
damn.
just let this weekend pass as soon as possible.
i cannot take it anymore. !!!
wo yao bao zha le!

i just hope the dinner on tuesday can be confirmed,
i am so so so looking forward to it.

ps: a moment of weakness, can cause a lifetime of regrets

!!! - 8th sept

ARGHZ!
why lidat?!
what i am fearing for has happened!!
WAH PIANG!

i am gonna die soon
MAB IS KILLING ME!
STRESS!!!

book worm - 7th sept

i've bought the book today at Kinokuniya.

an extract from the book:
"It's time to strut you skinny ass down the street like you're in an episode of Charlie's Angels with some really cool song playing in the background.It's time to prance around in a thong like you rule the world.It's time to get skinny."

you are what you eat.

anyway, found a book in Kinokuniya about Murphy's Law:
"Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong"
inside i found a sentence which goes something like this:
"When one person dies, its a tragedy. When 5,000 people die, its a statistic."

eh. true. i don't know to laugh or cry.
will go down and get that book when i have the time to read.
its interesting.

got alot of books that i want to read and buy but i don't have time now.
okay. i know i don't look like i read, but yes, i do read.
i am a book worm. provided if i have the time.

i love reading. (this statement is true,... to some extend)

6th sept

its hard to know what one is thinking.
very hard.
the army guy case is the hot topic in town now.
and seriously, why is he doing something like this when he is just one month away from ORD.
what the hell is he doing? hais. i think he must have gone bonkers.

super stressed out.
MAB is killing me, reducing me to a zombie.
just hope i can score well and every effort put in will be worthwhile.
I CAN DO IT!

ps: i need discipline. i need more determination. revamp in progress, and i will make u regret.

struggling - 5th sept

i am struggling to stay afloat
stress and worries are drowning me.
exhausted and worn out
with no one to lend a helping hand.
i need to do this alone,
because only i can bring myself to shore.

i am just afraid that
another wave will come crashing down
before i recover from the previous one.

i know i can do it
test and date dues are nothing new.
i can pull through it.

its you that is making me so helpless
fustrated and tired.
can someone tell me what to do.
give up or not? how to give up? how to carry on?

i am gonna get this book soon
its the in book now.

gimme more! - 3rd sept

britney's new song
Gimme More!



I see you
And I just wanna dance with you

Everytime they turn the lights down
Just wanna go that extra mile for you
Public display of affection
Feels like no one else in the room

We can get down like there's no one around
We'll keep on rockin', we'll keep on rockin'
Cameras are flashin' while we're dirty dancin'
They keep watchin', keep watchin'

Feels like the crowd is saying:

Gimme gimme more, gimme more, gimme gimme more [*4]

The center of attention
Even when they're up against the wall
You got me in a crazy position
If you're on a mission
You got my permission

We can get down like there's no one around
We'll keep on rockin', we'll keep on rockin'
Cameras are flashin' while we're dirty dancin'
They keep watchin', keep watchin'

Feels like the crowd is saying:

Gimme gimme more, gimme more, gimme gimme more [*4]

I just can't control myself
More, they want more
Well, I'll give them more

Gimme gimme more, gimme more, gimme gimme more [*4]

Gimme more,gimme more
Gimme more,gimme more babe
I just want more

Gimme gimme, gimme, gimme gimme [*4]

[Danja:]
Bet you didn't see this one coming
The incredible lygo
The legendary Miss Britney Sears
The unstoppable Danja
You gonna have to remove me
'Cause I ain't goin' no where (more)

its hot!
club banger
and it makes me wanna dance.
cannot wait to see the MV and her new album
it should be great
her music is nice but her personal life sucks big time.

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

A.R.K - 2nd sept

nothing in particular.
went to Ms Tan's (Mrs Chagng) house
she had her baby. Its a boy!
met Mr Tan there too.
secondary school memories, they are the best.

watched Evan Almighty.
wasn't very good neither was it that bad.
rather meaningful and quite funny.
2 and 1/2 star i would say.
A.R.K = one Act of Random Kindness
oh... the h.k cafe at Marina Square isn't that good. Kovan one is better.

random photos...




new blouse!




fat face


goofy!!


bright ideas.





i feel so damn lost,
with so many thoughts going through my head,
so many stuff unaccomplished,
and so many insecurities and changes around me.

i hate it.
i hate myself when i succumb to temptations,
when i cannot be in control over stuff.
it makes me feel so helpless.

people that i once knew is changing,
she isn't like this in the past.
or was i too naive to notice the real her.

society changes someone.
very true, but the question is: changes for the better or the worse?
i am not sure.

i am counting down to the days, he will be leaving for tekong
11 more days. less than 2 weeks.
its a new beginning for him,
and i will be mine too.
its time that i should really let go and forget.
(i've been saying that for a long time, but its hard)
no one will understand.
he's my bad habit
and habits are hard to break.

ps: i just hope that i am thinking too much.

changed - 1st sept

she have changed
changed into someone i don't know

how did this happen?

it makes my heart cold.