i hate it!

i hate it when people tell me what to do.
so what if they are someone you ought to respect and heed their advice because of their seniority.
i hate it!

they got no right to tell me whether i look good to them or not.
i don't need to please them, i am not here to please them, and neither am i doing this to please them.
so don't tell me that i don't look good thin.
cos i don't need to leave up to your expectations.
i do what i want, do what i please and
if i want to go thinner its not up to you to decide.

there are things i would listen to.
but there are some i would not and need not have you interferring.
stop calling my mum to tell to tell her how skinny i look and how ugly will i look if i am thin,
i am not doing this to please anyone
i am doing this to please myself.

call me skinny monkey or what so ever.
i don't care. tell be in my face
do not do it behind my back
cos i hate people criticising me behind my back.

anyway skinny monkey is always better than fat pig.
fugly skinny sounds better than fugly fat.

i don't need your comments
i like myself like this - thin

ps: endless ranting. but after all she is still a relative no matter what. i cannot possibly not respect her over such things. but probably avoid seeing her too often. muhaha. anyway HE made me happy just now. I AM HAPPY even though some things are bothering me.

randomly

you need to contact someone urgently
but somehow he/she isn't picking up your calls and replying your sms-es.

damn!
it feels so jittery.

but finally manage to contact her.

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my mum.
she's a bit blur. haha
but i still love her.
she's the best mummy i can find
although she's naggy at times
grouchy when she has had a tiring daya work
but she's still the best

its gonna be mother's day soon.
not sure when but i guess its soon when you see everywhere having mother's day sale
what should i get?

which sounds better?

skinny like a monkey

or

fat like pig

obviously the first one, right?
at least its skinny and not FAT!

work

work is...

fun

tiring

busy

but when you think about the money

its all worth it.

and it seems like everyoe found jobs.

ps: SIM gave me a place and NTU rejected me. bohoohoo... i think NUS would be difficult.

work tomorrow

i am feeling nervous
cos tomorrow i will be working
although a short while 6-10pm
but its still nerve wrecking
...

ps: wish me luck.

scared

eh.
i think i will be starting work soon
at vivo.

and i am scared.
long time no work le.

another thing
i think i would not be able to get into a local uni.
but just pray hard i will.

i can stop finding jobs...

yah.
i can stop finding
cause,
i don't have time to work.
not exactly no time
but who wants to hire a worker who needs to go on leave twice or thrice a month?
NONE!

so i think i would not be finding jobs for the time being
just pray hard i get into uni (oh, some have receive their uni application)
oh... i wan my nursing in NUS!

ps: physiotherapy, medical appt with the dentist Dr.Ong, cardiologists Dr. James Yip and Prof Wong and Dr. Lim. BUSY!

something...

putting on 1 or 2 kg may seem little to you all
but to me,
ITS DISASTROUS.
and i think i am FAT.

i think i am sick.
but i don't care.
thats the price you have to pay to be slim
watching your weight like a hawk.
especially when you put on weight easily.

when hunger has become so familiar like a close friend
the feeling of food in your stomach is disgusting.

don't tell me i am sick
cos i know it.
but i will not stop me.
i acknowledge it
i know its a problem, but so be it.
i am still in control over things.

i won't get extreme till the point i am stick thin
its not i want
i just want to be slim.

so don't stop me, yet.
i will stop when i know its enough


ps: anyway, the doctor said i need physiotherapy for my lower back pain. just let me imagine its like going for massage sessions. confortable and shiok!

i feel sick

grr..
very groggy
must be the sun today.
gotta slp earlier tonight

tomolo medical appt.
duhs.
dunno wad will happen

feeling fat
as always

hair - short

everyone is having theor hair short... and i think i am getting mine short too.

like this

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i want that hair style...

Mr Bean

its cute

nothing much

i have nothing to blog about
life is so mundane
nothing special
nothing much
just like everyday. slacking. sleeping. tv. internet.
gosh!
when would life like this stop?

again...

did i mention
may, jas and the girls bought me that new urban male shirt?

i want it and they bought it for me. i just love them.

yahoo!
i love it
thanks...
it cost a bomb and i love it (not because its expensive)
I LOVE MAY
I LOVE JAS
I LOVE EUNICE
I LOVE VERON
I LOVE FANG
I LOVE AILI
I LOVE THEM
I LOVE YOU ALL

anyway
i said something like i hate chi-nas on the previous post
i am not racist
seriously, i am not
i don't judge people by their skin colour or what so ever
but i just hate these china people
be it female or male
because they are just so self-centered, selfish, inconsiderate
you name it and they have them. bad ones
of course
there are still very nice china people but they are rare
like elephants can fly (only dumbo can do it)
and i don't make such comment for no apparent reason
see what my china neighbours have done (thank god, they don't live the unit next to mine. they live on some higher floors)
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charred walls



they did this to the walls and floor by burning incense paper near the common stair case landing, and i happen to witness it myself
i told them off and guess what they replied
"its raining so burn inside lo, i will clean one"
FUCK YOU LA
cannot wait for the rain to stop
you think it will rain 3 days 3 night or one whole week?
and FYI the rain stopped less than an hour later
about cleaning, they did wash away the ashes but the charred walls, what about it?
DAMN.
i am not complaining not because did they dirtied the walls and everywhere
they also posed a danger to other residents
what if they fire got out of hand?
i don't think they can pay back every single residents their losses
and also its really, absolutely inconsiderate.
how i wish i dialled for the police. they are VANDALISING although not by purpose but it is still vandalising
use their ass to think and they will know its definitely inappropriate to burn those incense paper there!
what about that rain
can't they just wait.
FUCK THEM.

i swear the next time i see them, i will rip their heads off. and i mean it. i hate those people. their expression, their tone. everything about them piss me off. they act as if they are right. come on, don't act as if you are right, cause deep down inside you know it is dead wrong and illegal. you are just inconsiderate to other neighbours. this is singapore not china where law there is just for "show". fuck back to china and do farming there, don't ever come back. it will make singapore look ugly with you.

ps: i don't condemn all china people or tat country and this post is targetted at those people who almost burned the staircase landing. i am sorry i generalised my comment on other china people or the country itself but you cannot blame me because its always those black sheep amongst them that tarnish the entire community's image. its them that you have got to blame. the black sheeps

I HATE THEM

i hate those chi-nas.
those china people.

get a job!

seriously, i need a job
at the rate i am shopping, i will be declaring bankrupt soon.
everyone has a job
only me...
boohoohoo!

BAM BAM!

so bored...
and i miss shopping

ps: things are just the way i like it between you and me. i dont deny wishing things were the other way round, but i still think its better like this.

very unconventional advertisement

according to sources
it is supposed to "jolt" smokers into quitting

yeah. they have done it.
not only have they "jolt" the smokers
they freaked out the rest