droppings

hais.
working makes me so depress.
i think its because i am too tired le.
been waking up at friggin' 6am and had to be out of the house by 7.15am
never wake up b4 the sun rises lo.

work today is equally bored
and there is really nothing much to do lehs
apart from some filing, sorting out of things and some data entry...

ate to full for dinner and i am slping early. (been having a bloated tummhy lately)
gonna grow fat.
should start to cut down on dinner,
and prepare to build up resistance to food when i go China in 2 weeks time.
i heard that food in China is oily and fattening cos' its winter there so they need more carb
OH GOSH!
going on a holiday is a very bad idea.

watched channel 8 and rui en was on this show
she is so skinny compared to the past.
oh... envy...
and i like her hair too.

i am so slpy...
so tired.
drained out.

i am thinking about him even more these days.

life ain't any better

work sucks lehs
boring...
doing data entry,
slacking around (discreetly)
cos' i am surrounded by managers and big shots...
no one to have lunch with.
everyone just goes off to lunch without you!
DAMN.
anyway, i am not there to make friends la,
so it doesn't matter much.
but frankly speaking,
its not that bad either.
at least i am paid. Muhaha.
(now i know why everyone feels so sick of working.)
and btw,
if any of you guys are free in the morning and afternoon,
please come online...
it feels good to have someone to chat to you when you are darn free
and it makes you look busy.
Haha... wayang wayang a bit.

time seem to come to a stand still
crawling so slowly.
hais,
and its been a long time since i've last seen him,
i really wanna ask him out but... (some other time. i've got my reasons)

someone just made a move,
hmm... or am i just thinking too much.
can't be bothered,
but i feel bad sometimes.

Life is so complex, or did we made it that way?

Heroes

got the Heroes video from Aili...
Wohoo!

platonic

I.M.U

shopped the whole day today...
went to the travel agency at Chinatown at noon to pay the remaining outstanding amount
then walked all the way to Clarke Quay The Central to shop
then took a bus to orchard and shopped again.
from Wisma to Taka to Centrepoint to OG Orchard to PS to The Cathay.
Wohoo!
but kinda not enough lehs.
haha... but enough for the day cos' my back is aching already.
starting work on Monday... Ka-ching Ka-ching... i hear money rolling in my bank.
HAHA.

watched Enchanted on Thursday with May, her sis and Mr Peh
nice movie but super fairy tale... hAha. Happily Ever After...
the Chipmunk is cute...
had dinner at Fish and Co. Glass House.
Baked Salmon... yummy!

Pool, bowling and supper on Friday with soon-to-be Corporal Peh.

not sure where to go tmr
but will be meeting Aili in the morning to get some stuff from her .
hmm... looking forward to Monday.
i think i will be very tired but for the sake of money...
wo ping le!

I.M.U

T3

over the weekends,
i went over to the new Changi Terminal 3.
Its mega big and uberly beautiful
enclose in glass and with so many plants inside...
an indoor forest, you could say.




the floor are so damn well polished that it squeaks when you drag your foot and reflects whats underneath those skirts.
Haha


plants everywhere


the high-tech roof.


work in progress


its all glass...


i am standing at the center of the whole building but i cannot see the other end... so imagine, its damn big.


where you say goodbye... and bon voyage


the new terminal has many shops and its Duty Free!


the runway...


where you wash your stinky feet...


it says belt 48.

you can enter the departure and arrival area where its restricted to people without boarding passes. for this open house, you can go in and view the (restricted) place at a charge of $1 for self guided or $3 for a guided tour. all proceeds goes to some charity organisation.

its a good hangout for nua-ing...
pa-tor (hmm...)
studying...
and submerge yourself in the mood for a holiday trip...
---
went for an interview this afternoon at Loyang.
hope i get a job this holiday,
i need ka-ching ka-ching.

is it fading away?

Preach on Mondays

another monday again.
blues...
Ha. went back for my checkup,
and it isn't really good.
the doctor confirmed that it is swollen lymph nodes (not salivary glands), Plus enlarged tonsils.
don't ask me whats that, cos' i have no idea. (goggle later).
the doctor wanted to do some biopsy but i kinda chickened out later,
so probably will have to do it the next time round.
DUHS. its so sickening. and the doctor say if the tonsils persist,
probably i will need to go under the knife. "!!!"
anyways, just wait and see ba.
won't die any sooner. HAHA.

i've got the urge to cut my hair.
hA. should i?

munchy donuts is coming to hougang mall...
but i never like donuts.

went to Changi Airport T3 ystd
Mega big (63 football fields), but its nice.
its like a greenhouse
and the best part, its got a very nice viewing hall.

watching "Blades of Glory" DVD later
i hope its nice.

should i... this weekend?

like always. its TUESDAY tmr.
and diet starts tmr.

another pointless post.

just ain't right.

My Future

sometimes, people get so busy with their lives that they forgot what they really want.
although i am not busy with anything,
somehow i have lost direction.
i am so unsure of what i really want now.
the future just feels so bleak,
what should i do next, what do i really want, where my future lies?
these questions are running through my head over and over again.
hais.
probably, i am thinking too much.
chuan dao qiao dou, zi ran zhi.
we'll wait and see, pass a day as it is.

if that's the case, so be it. i'll make you understand, threatening will not help you get what you want from me. you'll lose.

photos, rantings, book review and some contemplating.

celebrated Aili's Bday on Tuesday
at Party World @ Bishan (must thank Mr Peh for the voucher)
it was fun, the cake was superb, and the air-con was freezing.


frozen and stiff.


a love to die for


i am still cold. as in very very cold. and i need makeup from now on.

only these 3 pics cos' the rest, i look pretty awful in them. was pale and in a very frozen state.


those wrinkles on my forehead!!!


this one is funny!

hais.
no life. no money.
its so bored.
watching you tube all day.
wacthed America Next Top Model (ANTM), [its already cycle 9 in the US]
and some taiwanese idol drama.
Victoria Secret Fashion Show. WohOO! its coming soon, or has it started?
but its ard this period though.
OH YA! i read books too...
like thick books (not Harry Potter).
its called "The Interpretattion of Murder",
set in the early 20th century of America, where people still travel in carriages.
freaking nice, with an unexpected twist.
a mixture of fiction and non-fiction, with some psychology theories of Sigmund Freud.
its very interesting.

looking through old photos.
as in over the past few years
and gosh!
i did changed. but not so dramatic as people have said.
i think i am still recognisable lehs.
thought of posting those horrid photos of the old me
but i am rather paiseh about them.
HAHA. they are really hmm...

weekends now...
nothing much going on.
someone please kindly date me.
treat me for movies, lunch and dinner.
HAHA...
yup, din ask him out.
don't ask why, because i don't know too. (Surprise huh.)

i am broke,
and i need to make use of this holidays to save for year-end shopping and other "unnecessary" stuff.
its unnecessary in my mum's eyes.

its just a dumb post.
no main point, no purpose.
HA.

No one can choose your mountain or tell you when to climb;
Its yours alone to challenge at your own pace and time.

Tears for Boredom

i am so bored at home till i cried for no practical reasons
just felt so lonely all of a sudden.
this boredom is killing me,
reducing me into a moron.

when there is school,
i want holidays.
now,
i just want to be out of this house.
it so depressing being couped in a home with nothing to do.
the whole "aura" is just so negative.
sad and negative thoughts just flood your whole head.
lucky, i am still in control of these emotions,
if not the headlines tmr would be:
"Girl, 20 Dies From Boredom, Literally."

everyday i just don't feel like waking up,
because there is nothing much you could do.
if i am not watching tv, i will be you tube-ing, if not reading some storybooks.
THATS IT!
ITS KILLING ME SOONER OR LATER!
and when my parents get home,
its nagging nagging and nagging.
they nag me for being so slothiness.
HELLO! HOW PERKY CAN I BE WHEN I AM STUCK AT HOME THE WHOLE DAY.
if i go out,
they nag that i treat this house like a hotel.
HEY! I DON'T LIVE IN A NUNNERY. I NEED A LIFE!
see. its so difficult whether i am a home or not.
just feel so pek chek.
gosh! and i feel like crying again. Emo freak.
GRR!

i am going to tear down this house and create hell.

OH FUCK!

i've got the re-enrolment thingy in december
and i happen to be away.
DAMN!
why does everything that is important falls on the week i am away.
Jeremy's P.O.P oso that week (none of my business, as if he will invite me. HA)
shit la.
how?!
gonna call and ask tmr.
if i can wake up...
this is trouble.

haiz.

holidays now.
and i am so bored.
feel like working but i am lazy to move,
slacking at home makes me even tired.
shopping, but i am very broke.

i hate going out on weekends.
its so crowded everywhere,
and there are couples flooding the streets.
Grr.
when can we meet?! Haiyo.
the present is sitting at the corner collecting dust le.
six weeks, might as well make it to 2 months.
HAHA.

Welcome to my sucky life.

unlucky!

my saturday is gone like that.
spend the whole afternoon and night playing mahjong.
and i lost,
27 bucks!
the first time in history that i lost so much.
Wah.
this is just not my week.
and within 5 minutes after reaching home,
i quarrelled with my mum.
Woohoo!
i am really suay this week!

all over!

including myself.
i am gonna fail HMT. seriously.
i gave up totally.
the 20 marks part B was disaster, i wrote nothing. REALLY!
and the part A was a load of rubbish and i don't know what i am writing.
gonna see HMT next semester.
GRR!

my mood is fluctuating
PMS i think.

this weekend is crap without him.
he has booked out since wednesday night
he will only book in on sunday night,
and he has not even half a day to meet me. Grr Grr!!
anyway, not in a very good condition to meet him too.
look so sick and haggard.

went to meet Eunice and Mei Xi at Bugis today
and it happen that Luo Zhi Xiang was having his autograph session there
and it was jam packed!
lotsa crazy fan-cies.
haiyo. kids shall be kids
and yup, we all have been through that phase too (but not so crazy la)

Crappy weekends ahead. Boo!
HMT again. Boo Boo!
Bored and Sucky holis. Boo Boo Boo!

this feeling is taking control of me.

how bad can your day be?

very.
super bad. (not that movie)
there not much time left and there is load to study.
and the worse part is my weekend is screwed once again.
!!!
i hate this.
he isn't free.
and no one wants to go town with me.(i can understand)
i am pissed with the first.
duhs.
life is just so un-smooth
sadded life.
sadded human being.

and historians are really idiots.

dejected is my middle name

i am so sick of it

stop judging me, cause i can never live the life you want.
stop criticising me, you are in no position to do that.
stop poking your nose into my affairs, its none of your god damn business.
stop nagging at me, because it will only fall on deaf ears.
stop interfering with whatever i do, it irks me even more.

JUST SHUT UP! BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT EVEN MY MUM!
IF WHAT I DO DOESN'T PLEASE YOUR EYE, JUST TURN AWAY,
AT BEST I'LL POKE THEM BLIND FOR YOU.
AND THANKS FOR YOUR "CONCERN", THEY ARE TOO MUCH FOR ME TO BEAR.

seriously, just fuck off. i am so sick of you.

Back!

He's BACK!
and i am happy,
but at the same time very very tired.

HMT IS HELL!
there's so many things to study and memorise
but there is so little time left,
erm...
because i procrastinated.
its ok, all shall end on friday at 1.15pm.
HAHA.
shall spend whatever time i have left to study.

weekends will be fun,
and hopefully things go smoothly.

he can bring a smile to my face, and brightens up my day.

Nobody's Home

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

Random

okie. may and jas did their 8 points about their perfect partner
and i just realise how much i love lefties. (He is a lefty too! - by coincidence)
the way lefties write is so sexy. HAHA.
and it is said that lefties are smart people.
Wohoo. i am gonna learn how to write with my left hand

another 4 days and all sufferings will end
and maybe i would be able to meet him...
reviews on the movie "the gameplan" is good
and probably gonna watch it this weekend.

i miss those mahjong tiles.

weather forecast

a moment ago, my msn nick was "pray it will not rain for the next few days"
and now, i rained like cats and dogs.
with lightning and thunder too...
its a storm.
DARN.

he is in field camp,
and its raining heavily.
this is very bad.
please don't rain anymore,
till his field camp is over on wed.
i don't mind being scorch to death under the hot sun. HAHA,
but try not let it be too warm. thats bad too.
just a little sunshine and cool breeze

as if i can control the weather...

i don't know if its true...

it tickles me

i am so gonna die from laughing too much...
WAHAHA...
its so Funny lar.

Tagged! - Perfect Partner

okies... got tagged by shevon. (i was wondering if that Kelly was referring to me. HAHA. my name is too common...)
so here are my 8 points about my perfect partner.
i think 8 is too little.

1. Dependable
its important that i can depend on him to take care of my everyday needs, cos i being an only child, i depend quite alot on my parents.

2. Financially stable
able to provide for me. i don't need big house, luxurious fleet of cars, or branded stuff but at least i can led a comfortable life without worrying about finances.

3. Good physique
he need not be very macho with eight packs la, but at least fit with well define muscles. (good enough to piggy back me.HA).

4. Can tahan my nonsensical temper/mood
when i am in a bad mood my temper can be very fiery, and i can be an angel when i am in a good mood. he have got to love the both sides of me. (i am a little diva-ish sometimes, so he has got to pamper me too!) - LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM.

5. Family oriented
Very important! he has to love my parents and my extended family. ALSO, he has got to be filial to his parents.

6. Good personality and character
he's got to be respectful, to anyone. even strangers. like give up seat to the needy, help the needy... and stuff like that. also, he has got to respect me.

7. Needs to have his own thinking
Dont't go with the flow. He needs to know what he want in life and work towards it.
A man who know what he wants is SEXY. Very Sexy. guys who are aimless are whimps and thats a major turn off.

8. Knowledgable
he need not be the "know-it-all" kind or those brainy kind (cos' i will look stupid and bimbotic with him) but at least have good general knowledge and is able to strike a conversation that has substance and interesting. i don't like guys who cannot hold a conversation, talk with no depth or boast alot. at the same time, guys who talk too chim are very irritating.

NO MORE?! can i like add two more to make it 10?

9. Class
Ah beng and nua-nua dressing is a NO-No. flamboyant dressing and weird hairdos are big No-no too. Just simple, clean and smart would be good enough. (guys in uniform and suits are HOT! - I LIKE!)

10. Be there when i need him
Listen to my worries and fears. Lend me his shoulder to cry on, hold my hands and led me when i am lost, assure me when i am insecure, comfort me when i am weak, let me lean on him when i am tired.

i am not sure if there are such guys in the world. but i hope there is.
actually, after doing this, i realise the kind of guy i like now is very different from what i like a few years back. i guess i have grown. i remember in the past, i was looking for guys that look as if the walk out from fairy tales, tall and handsome, charming and rich. its all so superficial, nothing deep. HAHA.
WHAT A BIMBO.
i don't want handsome guys now, it makes me insecure and i think that people/things that look good on the outside may not be good inside. of course, he needs to be presentable and i must kan de sun yan oso. he need not be tall neither can he be too short. around my height would be good.
really, 8 is just too little, or is it because my standards are too high. afterall, it says PERFECT partner.

may and jasmine... DO IT!. haha...
i don't have 8 people to tag on (i've got no friends... boohoohoo!)
cos' lots of them don't blog.

i don't know if he fits into my perfect partner criteria.

Random Droppings

next week, i will be free!
anyway, he is in field camp now,
so he won't be back this weekend.
hopefully, next weekend,
he would not have any guard duty.
*keeping my fingers cross*

i need to do some retail therapy...
haven been shopping for quite sometime,
but i need to save money,
to buy that Nintendo DS Lite.
i could have just buy them now,
but i think my bank account would be very miserable after that.
seriously, i don't know how and where i spent my money on.
how can i have such a miserable sum of money in the bank?
guess i'll have to window shop liao...


the meal which i stuff myself to death


sushi tower, we ate this much


i like my sashimi


i am suppose to study for exams, but... (drawn by may)


the scientific explanation for love


early love is when you love the way the other person makes you feel
mature love is when you love the person as he or she is.


nature has wires us for one special person. (i like this phrase.)


wo bu xiang du shu le...!


the perfume i wanna get!


i like the box. its red.


someone gave it to my mum... since she is not using, i might as well use for her...


a moment blue...


a moment orange...


MESSY!

the photos are really random la...
haha... cos' nothing much happen. nothing interesting to take oso.

you are not in a position to judge me, so if you have nothing to say, just shut up.