Silence is Gold

FUCK the person who said it.
MY FOOT!

if silence was gold
tell me why didn't i strike rich ystd?!

ps: Transformers is the coolest show of the year! Ystd night was the quietest night ever.

freaking myself out

i think too much
and apparently, freaking myself out after that.

ha.
MAY! its not la .
either way, i feel relieved.
nt feeling disappointed though. REALLY.

schools starting next week
and i think i am looking forward to it.
study hard girl!
but i am worried.
i wonder when can we meet after this.
it seems like time is running out.
better plan plan plan.
work towards that goal.

ps: where are the photos?!

p/ps: and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true. [again.]

butterflies fluttering in my tummy

i got a bunch of butterflies in my tummy
its making me sick...
my heart is thumping like mad.
every single muscle in me is weak.
my mind is drifting away.

he makes me go weak.

i am starting to feel it.

STRESS!
sch has not started and i am stress
the timetable has alot of problems now.
CLASH CLASH CLASH.
need to call and clarify again.
hais.

ps: mr peh, you GOOD. Don't do this to me lehs. i will kan cheong one.

p/ps: i noe i said about photos. there will be delays.

hmm... she got all points wrong

my mum.
she's funny.
its making me laugh
what a stupid assumption .

she doesn't seem right

i dunno what has happen to her
but i noe she is having problems...
and she is not sharing.

she's feeling down
fustrated
hopeless...
i dunno
but i noe there's something very wrong with her
and she is not saying.

ps: you know who you are. i share my problems with you so share yours. thats what jie meis are for lehs. its no fun when i do all the toking and you do all the listening. let me listen oso lehs. don't tell me "nothing" or "i m ok" cos' YOU ARE BLOODY DAMN NOT OK!... Ha. so SHARE YOUR PROBLEMS!... tell me... pretty please *beg*...

F.A.T.E

the world is so big,
and for two people to meet and get together
requires fate.

not all people can have such fate.
so treasure the ones you love dearly.
its not easy to be together.
cherish them before its too late.

some people, can never have such fate with the ones the like.
why not treasure it, for those who have.
don't let go.

if i was to have such fate.
i treasure it, cherish them, keep them close to my heart
till the day i die.

ps: ...and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.

more ahead!

be prepared for the biggest post with the most photos ever!

COMING SOON!

but before that...
here are some video clips from youtube which i want to share...
they've got the greatest voice ever
from Britain's Got Talent Show


she brings tears to my eyes when she sings...



his voice is fantastic... absolutely nice... i am getting goosebumps.

very coincidental.

can someone tell me why am i always meeting people i know at the wrong place, wrong time and most imptly with the wrong person.

WHY?!

i don't know what to say but i think my view on everything have change.

last time i want to marry someone rich.
now i want to marry someone i love.
spending the rest of your life with the one you love is more impt.

last time i prefer bread to love
now i prefer the later.
with love, anything can be overcome.

i think its because of him
my life revolves around him 24/7
haha...
i think i stuck, deep.

the only thing now is making you mine...

thoughts for the day.

i wonder:

will my efforts be rewarded or will it be gone wasted?
will i get what i wish for at the end of the day or will i not?
should i give up or should i perserve?

and lastly
what am i gonna do if i don't have you?

stoopid may

hai, of so many ppl, why him?

i want to change "bf"!

it was suppose to be happy.

yah. but i screwed up everything.
i think his impression of me will be, what a clumsy and troublesome woman i am
WAH!

it shld be happy that he went to pick me up
and i manage to sit in the front passenger seat... for the first time (probably the last time too)
anyway, that short journey (from my place to parkway) how many times can you drop your stuff?
me? not once, not twice, but THRICE!
in the end, when we reach parkway, he had to help me search for my stuff...
embarrassing right?!
KILL ME!

i dunno what the hell happen to me
must be that medicine that make me drowsy.

anyway, pool was fun and he was damn pro.
WEIKAIT PLAY CHEAT ONE! he purposely let me win de!
that cannot be his standard la.


bleahx!




bu shang issit?! fight LA!

ps: may, the thing you told me about maybe he has feelings for me and blah blah blah... how i wish it was true but, its not possible. it can be only be a wish or rather a dream that will never come true. but thanks for saying that to make me happy.

i am so embarrassed

is that how u spell "embarrassed"?

IT WAS REALLY VERY EMBARRASSING YSTD!
I WANT TO GO COMMIT SUICIDE.!
I DON'T WANT TO LIVE LE!
KILL ME KILL ME KILL ME!

ps: where is sony ericsson's service centre ?

pleasure. treasure. pressure

3 cups of yuan yang. a simple pleasure to satisfy cravings.


xing wang @ heartland mall


presents from wei kiat.




the white one is mine.


cool! chio.




treasure your friends. especially great friends.

ps: even when you mine your own business, people will still "kan ni bu shuang". whats their problem huh?! BITCH!

Cars

recently vivo had this italian fair which displays a wide range of italian products including Cars:

Alfa Romeo




my favourite - Alfa Spider. if he wants to get a sports car, get this!



and finally...

LAMBORGINI (is that how you spell it?)

Burn It Down!

Wah Piang!

i wan burn down tv station le la!

BURN IT DOWN!

lessons on life.

no.1 - only hard work can get you to where you want to be

no.2 - never be complacent

no.3 - do not judge a book by its cover

no.4 - open your eyes wide, and watch your back

no.5 - be grateful

ps: sometimes, i find that we are so different. different world, different lives, different thinking. Different!!btw, i just realise i may be a little too naive.

happiness

everyone has their own perception to happiness

to some, happiness may be just having a good night sleep
for some is having food on the table.
others it may be just doing something they enjoy.

what's your happiness?

mine.
simple. being together with the one i like.
that's just pure happiness.

some people have happiness within their reach
some are far beyond their reach.

where is your happiness?

mine.
far far away.
neither within my reach nor within my sight.

happiness.
something that can make you love life
or hate life.

what's yours?
i hate mine.

fucked up

everyone are leading a perfect life

me?

like shit.

and i am starting to feel hopeless in everything.

freaking tired

been loosing sleep these few weeks
sleep late and waking up super early.
i am not sure why
but i feel so pressured by some things.

i am emotionally and physically tired
there are plenty of setbacks recently
uncertainty, doubts and fear.
working the whole week
and its tiring to be standing all day
and get scolded by unreasonable customer
duhz.

the only thing i am worried now is the date line.
its freaking me out
its stressing me out.
i am trying my best but it seems like its still the same
damn.
i feel pissed now.
DAMN DAMN DAMN!
FUCK!

i wanna scream my head off.

i am thinking of giving up.
seriously. i feel so tired of everything

lend me a shoulder to cry on. please.

anyway,
when did May had a shop?


ps: even after i finally bought that bag, my mood seems to have drop to an all time low.

depress.

i noe i should not be depress
and i should try some more.
but i starting to feel tired.
these setbacks are tiring me out.

我的头发已全部剪掉
你指定的发型我现在不想要
我再也不会抱着你聊聊
那些以前以为有的未来
对你说的话
现在想起来多可笑
请你别太计较

早知道我会爱得受不了
就该随身带着一把剪刀
把所有我不爱的画面都去掉
是否我会更好

早知道认识你像玩高空弹跳
拉扯你我爱的距离忽大忽小
也许认识我的时候你就知道
你对我的爱有多少

acceptance.

there are few things which had happen the past few days that made me kinda look at live again.

firstly, Veron had her baby girl on thursday morning.
wohoo!
Welcome to this world, baby Claudia Tan Rui En.
haa...
visited her with wei kiat
its a very weird feeling seeing a fren with the same age as you being a mother le.
kinda feel old
and make me feel like having the urge to have a baby
but after careful thoughts, i think better not. haha

secondly, had dinner with may and wei kiat on thursday night.
something happened there and it makes me feel so depress the whole night.
there was this old man whom picked up my leftover food to eat in front of us.
i offered to buy him a new one so that he need not have mine but according to the cleaner there, this is n't his first time le.
aiyo.
you say depressing ma?!
anyway he rejected my offer which i regretted. should have insisted in buying la... if not give him some money.
hai...
why is there such people on earth?
are they really poor or what?
how can one be that poor to end up in such state?
thats the world , i guess.
i feel lucky that i have food to eat. at least not leftovers.

thirdly,
i've been taking bus 80 to work lately
and it will pass by geylang.
i feel very digusted by the sight over there
old man hanky panky with china woman in front of the bus stop
if not you will see these woman soliciting there too...
imagine, a crowded bus stop?!
and its not even night time yet!
its just 2 plus in the noon and they have began their "work"
wah...
but why in front of the bus stop where its so "open"
ew... just gross out

sometimes you have to just accept things and people with an open mind. Accept them for what they are. Probably, you will live life happier that way.

ps: wei kiat driving skill better. at least he no need to open the door to see the lot when he is parking. muhaha! not like someone... ha