discipline - 30th jul

i need some discipline
be it school work, or personal goals.
i need discipline
(i should be mugging now!!!)

anyway, met up with may and jasmine
FINALLY, the 3 of us again!
muhaha. just like sec school days.

also, gotta learn how to differentiate between left and right
yes, i know its a bit too too too late.
kindergarten kids also know.
but, yah... i got some problem with them.
its just abit confusing
left - right, zuo - you
whats wad?



discipline starts now!
study study study!!!

breeze through life - 29 jul

life is short.
enjoy it.

visited my uncle in hospital
he is fine.
just old problem with his diabetes.
but age is catching up with him.

i guess its what we have to face.
shen lao bing si

just take it easy ba.
either way, we will have to depart when the time comes
so, just take life easy.
breeze through it.
have fun
enjoy.

ps: back to mundane life. weekdays are here again. better work hard this week .

at night of laughter, fun and absolute High! - exclusive photos too!

YEAH!
met up with "jie mei"
he is BOTAK!
and honestly, i think i wasn't that bad.
so remove your ski cap!

last night was fun
had supper at Jalan Besar, Curry Rice
den off to Selegie Rd of Soya Beancurd, and i swear that it was Nice! Rochor Rd Beancurd.
After that, head down to Geylang,
so that my jie mei can see the girls.
being away on an island with mostly men and no more than 20 women for 14 days, can be torturing.
so we decided to give him some eye candy.
and guess what, i think he was really xing fen.
ahaha. i girls there where pretty, sexy and hot.
the men there were old, ugly and filthy.
Ha... of course, excluding our jie mei
i bet the girls there were eyeing him.



met him at Kovan.
our usual hangout for yuan yang.
it was cold ystd.
i shivered like crazy.

and i was like wen jing from that 9pm channel 8 show
ha.





TAKE OFF YOUR SKI CAP LEHS!
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exclusive photo


ps: i think i should distant myself from him starting from now. i dun wanna lead him on, or say things that would hurt him, cos its bad and i know the feeling of it. ignorance is bliss. from now on i shall pretend i don't know anything and keep the distance. thats the only way out. sorry, you're good, but not my cup of tea, cos i am not worthy for it. there will be better ones out there.

new and fresh haircut

wanna see my new hair style?

i got my hair cut at Jean Yip from mall
the hairdresser din really dare to cut too short for me...
haha.. i had long hair b4 dat...
and to cut to the length now is really ALOT!

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a new diva is born!

tell me how you find it, okie?

please say its nice.
haha...

say i am pretty.
LOL

say i am gorgeous.
*faint*

harry potter. and myself

harry potter was out like on saturday.
haven got my copy of the last and final instalment of the series
but i already know the ending!!!
i love it.
i bet May wouldn't like it, cos its not "dark"

will get my copy soon.
as in when i finish reading the sixth edition (i haven read that yet! its been collecting dust on my table for quite sometime.)

anyway, i have got this essay to write and its due in about 4 weeks time
and i am very proud to say i have not even started on it yet.
DAMN!
i am darn good in procrastinating
SHIT ME!

time has been slow these days
and i don't know why
it seems like they are crawling by...
hais...
so fan, so bored, so tired, so moody...
4 more days to go
before i can see my jie mei and his new haircut.
seriously, i am super excited to see him botak.
i can't wait to laugh till i dislocate my jaw. *ouch*

i like short hair now
low maintenance.
i wake up everyday feeling so fresh
just comb comb jiu can go out le...
if i wan to look more "prima-diva"
style and put on sunglasses. HA.


bye bye long hair...

sometimes, i think i am too xiao xing yan
die die also want that something/someone.
everyone has asked me to widen my scope.
i have tried and will still try
but the guy i like probably don't like me
and the guy i don't really like... likes me...
damn! i don't like the way the world works.

ps: sometimes i take good pictures


i like the one in the middle.

TGIF plus new hair style

thank god its friday!
but somehow i m so tired
no programs on tonight
and my mum is surprise i am not going out...
haha...
where got programs when my mum's assume "bf" of mine is in army.
HAHA...
anyway "sister" will be out next friday.
looking forward to it. it will be funny.
oh... i think i am falling sick too.
very tired and lethargic today.

anyway got a new haircut.
is short! i mean real short. no more shoulder length
haha...
only May manage to have a sneak preview of it.
haha... the real reveal will happen next week i think.
i want to see their reactions. but i am excited to see particularly HIS reaction (if he is coming, yet to ask)
i have realise that male hairdressers are more gentle than female ones.
Ha...

i need to shed more weight
never be complacent
hais... but i just ate a ton of food
the scale is gonna go up tomolo morning

ps: i am sorry. i am feigning ignorance to things happening. i am sorry if i gave false hope, although i am trying not too. i don't know how to reject neither do i know how to love any other person other than him. Thank you but i am sorry.

insecurities

duhz...
i feel fat...
somehow, the diet isn't working well.
need to put in more effort!

ps: i am getting my hair cut tomolo. a change of style too... looking forward to it.

boring x 1000

time flies when you are having fun
otherwise, it crawls slower than a snail.

seriously, i find life super boring now.
if i am not in school
i will be at home sleeping or mugging

i am waiting for my "sister" to come back from Tekong
have a big laugh at his new hair cut,
the one that doesn't go out of fashion
BOTAK!
haha...

till then, i guess i will be leading a mundane life.
and guess what, when life is so freaking boring
temper tends to flare up more easily.
quarrelled with my mum.
DAMN!
sometimes i wish i could just die in front of her.
kill myself before her eyes
and make her regret for life.
she just doesn't know what i am going through now
always choosing the wrong time to nag
and make things worse for me.

moody moody and still moody
after saturday night, talking with eunice
i have been very moody
a 5% chance is still a hope - if thats what you think it is.
i don't wish to cling on to it.
but there's always still hope
i am blinded to that 95% of no chance,
all i see is 5% chance...
its still chance.
but deep down i know, that 5% would never work.
its false hope.
everyone around me knows it
but didn't want to tell me.
fearing i would be hurt.
DAMN YOU!

how hurt can i get?
even cannon balls cannot pass through me now.
i am immune to pain
i am numb.
probably making myself numb to this world.
for i want to avoid all these pain.
i am numbing myself to everything.
i don't want to shed a tear for anyone and anybpdy.
not even him.

complicated

life is getting complicated.

undone assignments
notes not copied finish.
lectures not yet read.

problems at home
mum is naggy then usual
feeling frustrated at things
hanging on to that so called "hope"

DAMN!
how can life get this bad?

counting down

-Wed 11.07.07-
counting down: 2 day (48hrs)

had dinner with wei kiat, may and jeremy
at this korean Charcoal BBQ restaurant along east coast




we are freaking hungry!


look at how squeezy the table is!


yummy!


healthy boys and girls, loads of vege


we cleared them!


full and contented!


deserts




siam arhs!






watermelon..


hehe


its nokia versus sony ericsson or its 3G versus 2G

-Thurs 12.07.07-
counting down: 1 day (24hrs)

when to watch Harry Potter at Vivo
i love the show
i love the cast
especially daniel radcliffe
but why did he kissed cho chang!
she's the traitor!
had dinner at this Hong Kong Restaurant


Harry potter


cute puppies are also included


super wide lens


so many times zoom is that suppose to be?


Simpsons








big kids


what are we looking? its a bird, its a plane... no...


its ultraman, spiderman and superman




i like their expressions


guess who i saw?

terrence cao was buying donuts at the shop i used to work at... and i happen to drop by for a visit. lucky me!


i am talented. Copyright


armani hairstyle is back. and PCK is spotted with that hairstyle


mohawk.

-Fri 13.07.07-
Counting down: 0 days (hours away)

Pulau Tekong...
15 mins away from mainland Singapore.
the place where boys become Man
the place where they learn to serve and protect the place they call home with pride and honour
the place where they shed tears and sweat and hair.
the place where they make friends which may last a life time
the place where make life changing experiences
ITS THE PLACE THAT IS STRICTLY FOR MEN!
ha...

anyway, had brunch with wei kiat at 1030 at mall.
time is ticking. and i think he is nervous, anxious and scared?


pasir ris interchange. to be NS man and their anxious family members




he just keeps on staring out of that window...


Basic Military Training Centre BMTC 2 - where boys become men


some come in with bald heads already


compare to that mr big muscles


mr big muscles... i think he got muscles bigger than his officers inside


i am sea sick.


welcome to tekong


sunny drill - sometimes i am gald i am born a female


Ninja Company Section 4 - god bless him

it is said that Ninja Company is one of the most tough one. their training officers are commandos.

oath taking ceremony


wei kiat would be like this too...

they've got an olympic size swimming pool... lucky them.
when we were touring the compound
we pass by this section where it is called SOC - Standard Obstacle Course
but it is far from standard...
its crazY!!
a few kilometers of run followed by 11 obstacles to cross and you have to complete it under 10mins or so.


$3 worth of international calling cards
wei kiat said apparenty you can call to bangaladesh... HAHA


left right, left right, left right...


he and his mum...

i can tell his mum is super worried and "fang xin bu xia" him
when we were touring the compound, and happen to pass by new recruits, his mum is busy looking to see if wei kiat was one of them.
and when after goodbyes were made and we are walking to the jetty for the ferry, his mum was still looking back to see her son...
so touching... thats the greatness of motherly love.
onli never cry only, if not, it would be a priceless picture and a touching memory of how great mothers can be...
WEI KIAT... LOVE YOUR MUM!


bye Tekong. bye Recruit Peh. Enjoy your stay for the next 9 weeks or so...